I wonder if you can see
I wonder if you can tell
I wonder if you see through
the mask I wear so well

I'll never let you know what's going on inside me
My shame locks me down

All the things I wanted to tell you
Are all the things I never will
Every time you reached out to me
All I did was push you away

I can't unchain the beast that screams inside me
I hate it, it's what I am

It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene

You smile at me
I smile back
You ask me how I am
I tell you that I'm fine

I don't know why I'm so torn up inside my mind
The darkness - it swallows me whole

It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
It's shame, shame, it's shame

At least I don't lie, at least I don't lie. I look at myself and say "Man, you're doing just fine, you're doing good". I'm not living in a lie. I'm not living in a lie... or am I ?

It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
Shame

Don't go too deep
Don't ask me why
Don't try to know me
Don't make me lie

I wish I didn't know the things I know so well
I try to change but it's what I am

It makes me sick to be so mean
From what I've been and what I've seen
From top to bottom, I am obscene
It stands in my place
It spits in my face
It's shame, shame
It's shame, shame